Haute of Control: 2009

Friday, December 18, 2009

PULL IT TOGETHER WITH LEATHER...

There is definitely something sexy about a girl with an attitude and a pair of leather pants...

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(THEY ARE SO HOT)

In Love with Nasty Gal's new video lookbook too...

Thursday, December 17, 2009

THE TARNISHED FAIRY TALE

Recent events in my life have led me to an epiphany....

Dating. Dating is an enigma. Beneath all the bullshit everyone deep down longs for the fairy tale circumstances to arrive on their doorstep. Everyone desires to be sought after and be the star in their own romantic feature film... Love at first sight…he rescued, he swept me off my feet, and we lived happily ever after...blah, blah, blah. Let’s be reasonable here…ANYTHING “at first sight” is all superficial infatuation anyway. But don’t worry it’s not your fault. You have been “prepped” since childhood; we have been instilled with the idea of the perfect fairy tale romance. We are programmed to set unrealistic standards and inevitably to be let down. Thank you very much Walt Disney.
What’s really happening is that as we move into adulthood, we are swept into a relentless current known as the “dating pool”. Then, it’s sink or swim baby… Unfortunately, most of us end up wanting that “fairy tale” relationship so bad that we put our guards down and become too emotionally available for these overly aggressive dating veterans and end up hurt. I’m sorry to break it to you but you were an easy target for the cast-and-release program. Once released, it doesn’t take long to come to the “I have just been taken advantage of” “none of it mattered” realizations. Then with each realization we end up accumulating bricks to the wall that’s steadily building around us weather we like it or not. And these walls continue grow higher and higher with each learning experience. A subconscious defense mechanism to protect ourselves, that comes with recognizing the “games” they play, and from consequences of our own actions. In turn, we become so concerned with our own self-protection; we end up sabotaging the potential of a relationship and feelings that have finally arrived with someone of true potential. We’re so afraid to be hurt, that we deny the possibility of a reality in which we are actually happy. I’d call it self-sabotaging, but I guess that’s too dramatic. Vicious cycle... but it is what it is.
-Erika Saxon

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

BEHIND THE SEAMS....

*I was the fit model for the video...fun stuff! I love watching JOYCE and getting the inside scoop :)

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

BOW-DACIOUS...

Bows add a touch of innocence.
Innocence is like polished armor; it adorns and defends

FENDI

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MAX AND CLOE (98$...steal!)

Monday, December 14, 2009

GIRLS CAN BE SO CATTY...

"There's a lot of estrogen going on here. I'm not saying it's a good thing, either. Women are very catty and very calculated. They tend to have ulterior motives.”

Happy Monday! For once in my life, being a pack-rat has paid off...I found a ton of animal prints boxed away in my closet! I could only compare to the feeling you get when you find 10$ in your pocket on a rainy day! But keep in mind... there is a fine between simple-statement-chic and too-much-trashy-hooker print.

*PS speaking of cheetah....

UPDATE: Tiger Woods is no longer a "Tiger" he's a Cheet-ah! haha

Friday, December 4, 2009

WHEN IT RAINS IT POURS...

I found this picture today and was inspired to write a girlfriend of mine (who's going through the rough patch we call heartbreak) and I thought i would share...never know who else needs it...

Tragedy and heartbreak filters out your true friends from your acquaintances. But even with the closest friends there to offer a shoulder and support, in the end you’re still broken. You can try to fake it, ignore it, or stand up and face it grasping the new knowledge that the experience has brought you. Growing up is complicated. Yes, I know all to well, the realization of facing the situation head on and recognizing that YOU allowed this hurt to be brought on, you want to close yourself off from everyone, you feel unsafe, you detach… you spiral down in to a point of self reflection questioning your intuitive nature and your intelligence. But what is this actually accomplishing? Self reflection is good…but not in this unhealthy self destructive kind of way. That self destructing pattern will inevitable act as a quick sand trap and become a comfortable place to hide causing you to miss out on life entirely. I don’t have all the answers… But I know that life changes course and its incredibly scary driving blind, especially when all you have in the passenger seat are the memories and the heavy feeling of loneliness that those memories have chained you to. In retrospect, everyone is “driving their own car”, getting flat tires, hitting bumpy roads, and breaking down. Regardless…we are all living “in the fast lane” and the scenery is passing by at an incredibly alarming rate.

It’s all about courage right now, courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, and embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power. There are 6 billion people on this planet…and deep down everyone is looking for that “spark” or connection. Come to terms with the fact that each relationship you have had with these “great” guys has come to and end for a reason. You were not meant to be with them for what ever reason. You are no longer jaded, its time to move on, wade through the waters of the assholes, cheaters, and the emotionally unstable but do so with the understanding that out of the 6 billion people on this earth, at least, one of them will eventually meet your expectations as a spouse and will make the rest of the “drive” worthwhile.

-Erika Saxon